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Well, I haven't written on here as much as I had hoped I would. These guys keep me pretty busy. I'm trying to be focused and do a good job in teaching Holly, while also giving June and Noah the attention they need as well. Sometimes I feel panicked at how fast it's going. Holly turned seven this winter and that threw me for a loop. She is moving out of her little years and is growing and maturing at lightning speed.
It causes me to wonder: Am I doing a good job? Am I teaching her what she needs to know? The important things? And what even are the important things? I know I want her to know the Lord, love the Bible, love others, love learning, etc. It can all seem so daunting.
And then I think, maybe the best way for her to learn all this is by my example. Do I love the Lord, value His Word, love others well, give thanks for this life I'm living?
Now that really seems daunting.
When I was a young married lass, we moved to Atlanta and Allen started his first job at a sweet Christian school as a fifth grade teacher. I was working from home as an editor and felt a little lonely and worthless. I wondered what my greater purpose was? Was I doing anything truly important; did my life have meaning?
An older wiser woman asked me what Jesus' greatest commandment was to us? I answered "'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'" (Luke 10:27) Her advice was that in any and every stage in life, if we can do this, we are doing something important.
I guess I get sidetracked in my thinking. I think that to be a successful mom my kids have to be skilled in five hundred different things, involved in every activity available to them and that I also need to be producing and excelling in areas outside the home.
In my saner moments I am truly thankful and happy I get to stay home with them, take care of the house, and teach them to be people who know their God. But it's tempting to think it's not enough. That I'm not enough. That what I do is meaningless and insignificant.
I'm thankful for the word of God that brings me back to sanity and reminds me of what is truly important. Matthew 6:33 says, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
If I can seek the Lord and love Him and love others by His grace, then my life (and yours) is eternally significant.

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